Am I A Murderer?: Testament Of A Jewish Ghetto Policeman

A young Polish Jew chronicles his life under the Nazis. In the vain hope of protecting himself and his family, Calel Perechodnik made the wrenching decision to become a ghetto policeman in a small town near Warsaw, and the tragedy of his decision becomes clear when, during the "Aktion", he sees his wife and child forced onto a train bound for the Treblinka extermination camp. Filled with loathing for the Germans, the Poles, his Jewish brethren, and himself, Perechodnik fled the ghetto to shelter with a Polish woman in Warsaw, and in the course of 105 terror-filled days he poured his story into a diary. Shortly before his death in 1944, he entrusted the diary to a Polish friend, and the document was eventually deposited in the Yad Vashem Archives in Jerusalem. Left nearly forgotten for half a century, it was finally published in Poland in 1993.